appels + oranjes

No, but Im trying to learn. Its just that i dont understand why if I study and i know everything I should know when I go to class and the teacher asks me something I go blank. I hate it, specially when my 16-17 year old classmates look at me with that "you are so stupid" face thinking they are better than me. Ahh, whatever I dont really care what they think, Im just upset at myself. Anyway, today as I was in class I realized it would be so much better if I had someone to practice with instead of just "speaking" french on saturday morning but as I know no french or canadian people thats kind of hard. So I thought what I should do is get a job and go to live in France for some months, as an au-pair or something like that. Of course I have no money but maybe if I get a job here NOW and save all of the money I get I could go by the end of this year. One can only dream but I really want to do this, also it would be great to have a break of university. I told my mom about it and she seemed to be fine with it (she never cares, she probably thinks I'll forget about it in a couple of weeks and get a new dream). So I'll see what I can do about it but who knows, maybe je vais habiter en france cet annee.

now playing: Friday I'm In Love ~ The Cure

So, I guess for a person my age I´ve been to a lot of places but then when I look at this map I realize its nothing compared to what Im missing. According to this website I've only visited 5% of the world. Im not as naive as to think i will be able to travel EVERYWHERE but I hope before I die I can say I have visited all continents. In the meanwhile my short time goal is to go to either Africa or Asia before I'm 30. That gives me 10 years to work hard and get on a plane. But then I also want soo bad to backpack through South America that I might do that instead. Who knows, I just think that I should travel as much as I can while Im young, then work hard and then travel again when I retire. Nice dreams...who knows what life has planned for me.


now playing: Enjoy The Silence ~ Depeche Mode

I love rain. Even when it ruins my plans like right now. I was suppossed to be heading to the movie theater but its raining too much, maybe we will go later. Theres just something about it that makes me feel great, it has some sort of relaxing effect on me. I just like to play some great music, lay down and think. I can do it for hours and then when it stops raining i go out and theres the smell of wet soil everywhere. I guess it has do to with the place where I live, i had to get used to it.

now playing: Angelica ~ Lamb

"Own only what you can carry with you; know language, know countries, know people. Let your memory be your travel bag."

Alexander Solzhenitsyn

I LOVE trip hop music. Portishead, Lamb, Tricky, Massive Attack and so many others are some of the best "discoveries" i've made in the last years. I was once borrowed a Hooverphonic cd but didnt like it much so I gave it back and forgot about them. About six months ago a friend of mine made me a cd and he put some Hooverphonic songs in it but I usually skipped them until one day Eden happened. I'm still not very fond of Hooverphonic music but this song just kills me everytime I hear it. So here are the lyrics, hope you like them!:


Eden

Did you ever think of me
As your best friend

Did I ever think of you
I'm not complaining

I never tried to feel
I never tried to feel this vibration
I never tried to reach
I never tried to reach your eden

Did I ever think of you
As my enemy

Did you ever think of me
I'm complaining

I never tried to feel
I never tried to feel this vibration
I never tried to reach
I never tried to reach your eden

So here I am starting a new blog. I had another one for about an year but it became too public plus the reasons that made me create it are no longer good reasons so I thought it was time for a new beggining. Don't know exactly why I like writing about myself to complete strangers but I do and even though i thought it would never result interesting for anyone else it actually did. So this is it by now, if you want to know more just feel free to ask.